That’s such an insane thing to say too because Ukrainian uses Cyrillic lol

What sucks is that people the who call themselves anti-imperialist seem to have a skewed definition of what imperialism is. I don’t want to write off every single person, professor or student, but it’s difficult to sustain hope as when I think I’ve found a peer that goes out the window the next sentence they say. I’ll keep an open mind but not so much I’ll end up disappointing myself, if that makes sense.

It honestly does boggle my mind when conservatives complain about “Marxism” is academia and how they have to pretend to be liberals when studying. Here’s the thing about that, they’re more accepted than any communist and the only problems they will face as conservatives is push back against their racism and transphobia (and antivaxx sentiments), if they drop those attitudes then they’ll get by easily.

My political science professor told me that I would do well in academia because Marxism is very accepted, but he was so so wrong…

I definitely won’t bring him up, I’ll just read him on my own time. I’m already in a precarious situation and don’t want to rock the boat anymore than I already have. My history paper might be the tipping point but I’ll at least be done with the semester by then.

I can see why you’re upset, comrade. Sorry you have to go through this gas lighting.

That’s literally what this is, isn’t it? Gaslighting. I’ve never been gaslit before so I didn’t know what it felt like. It’s horrible. I really did question if I was crazy. If two authority figures are saying I am, maybe it’s true. It’s not, of course, but I went through those feelings of questioning my sanity. It’s a painful experience, I never thought it would hurt so badly. Even though I’m not feeling as terrible as yesterday, it is still lingering and the lecture today plus a new email I received is not helping. Sometimes I feel like this is being done on purpose but I have to remember I am not the centre of the universe.

Maybe I should read Marxist theory as a relaxer, it may help me make it through school more than video games will (although they are fun). Sometimes I just get overwhelmed with the sheer volume of works it can be hard to choose.

I will survive my undergrad even though I’ll be a little “traumatized” by the end. Maybe my masters won’t be as bad if I can study under a professor that is worth learning from. I want to get involved with either my school’s Indigenous club or with a local group but my social anxiety hold me back tremendously. Once I get it reigned in I will definitely move forward with that.

Honestly, I probably would have just groaned rather than cried upon reading that email

You are much stronger than me, but then again I am a very sensitive person, I have been my whole life. Hopefully one day I can have the same reaction as you. I think being incredibly sleep deprived (pulled two all-nighters in a row to finish a paper) made it easer to break me down. I think I also just got protective over Katchanovski too even though he’s a grown man who can defend himself just fine, I’m sure he knows about what certain people think of him and it doesn’t bother him, but him being called fringe hit me personally because I guess I am too. It also cuts that this is all coming from two authority figures, two people (probably more) that can do so much and I can’t. It just proved to me that I am unsafe no matter where I go in this school.

Ooooof, G‐d… I swear, that historiaster has laid waste to the field of WWII studies.

My professor sees to be a big fan of Timothy Snyder, and I guess the Head of the Ukrainian “club” is too considering they both mention him as an authority. My historian told me to look into Snyder during our meeting, he references him in our class about the holodomor (this was on Wednesday) and he gets mentioned again by the Ukrainian “club” leader. People seem very attached to him. I do have Grover Furr’s book but I haven’t had the time to read it, but I might have to soon.

Thank you for linking so many sources, I’ll try to get through them too.

Yes, I’m a university student. I knew before hand that I was going into a very liberal institution (I would say most Canadian schools are like that) but I honestly didn’t think it would be this bad. My political science teacher told me that Marxists do very well in academia so my ideas and whatnot will not be unacceptable. But it seems like he’s wrong for this specific school as not only are professors like this, but so are the higher ups. The statement he copied and pasted from the head of the Ukrainian “club” (it is much more official than a club but I’m being careful with words) just proves this goes much further. So far it seems all the decent professors live elsewhere and I’m stuck with cryptofascists…

I may have screwed up in my summarizing of the statement. When I wrote “gain ground” I meant gain support., that’s my bad for doing a terrible job of paraphrasing. What he said in the statement was “[the separatists] were flailing and had comparatively little public backing until Russian troops moved in to support them in 2014.” That’s my bad but I don’t know if what he actually said helps his case.

With regards to finding solace in my fellow students, I don’t think that’s going to happen any time soon. So far everyone in my classes follows a similar line of thinking, even when one girl (who is an immigrant from Latin America) criticized Hannah Arendt’s “banality of evil” piece we had to read for our holocaust week, in another class she doesn’t pull any punched against the Soviets (essentially equating them to Nazis in how they treated the Polish). Maybe future courses will be better but I won’t hold my breath.

Perfect timing for me, oh my god lol

There’s nothing embarrassing about ASMR, I think I just got personally embarrassed because I was being “spoken to” if that makes sense. I don’t usually listen to these but this one I saw in a video and was intrigued.

I saw it when I was watching a woman react to funny ASMR videos, this one was in her search but she didn’t watch it so I looked it up. I’m super curious about what happens in it but I got too embarrassed to watch the whole thing.

Have you watched this particular video? I tried watching it but for some reason I got embarrassed and closed it only after a few seconds.

The scene where Oppenheimer is being interrogated and she’s on his lap staring right at his wife will haunt me for the rest of my life. I understand the metaphor, but it still sucks.

This particular course is about genocides, so famines in general aren’t really talked about (except this one). I can bring it up to him just to test the waters, see if just any famine can be considered a genocide or just the “holodomor.”

I am tempted to ask him about Churchill’s Famine and if that’s a subject worth discussing in our Genocide class.

This was me during my history class today:

I need the strength. Spoiler alert, Stalin was shit on the entire class today and it sucked, they even made fun of his lemon trees. I made a post for those curious.

It’s Holodomor week at school!

The job market is so fucked, they claim to be desperate for workers but pull this shit anyway. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this, comrade.

Honestly, for a firewall it isn’t very consistent. I can still access the Ministry of Foreign Affairs and RT with no problems.